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So I made the call and I was right, I was shaking over a few second voicemail.  I still think it is silly but it is what it is.

So

For the third time I have contacted someone just as/after they have received a transplant from another donor.  I must have some sort of touch, some sort of good kidney boogajoo.  I really never thought it would be this hard.  Maybe at some point I will become discouraged and walk away, or let it wear me down and hand the decisionover to strangers who make decisions based on some need matrix on a computer or I will open my profile and see if anyone comes looking for me.  I hope not.  It took me a long time to come to terms with all of this and find the way that is right for me and I am not going to abandon the process in less than 6 months, especially since the things that have made this journey bumpy is that people are getting what they need, their health!  What a joyous thing to cause trouble :)

So I have sent off an email to a 40 something mother of 4 over in Illinois.  She is going to be a hard match and I doubt we'll be a fit from the sounds of it, but I will do the preliminary match work if she is interested.  If nothing else it will get all my numbers on file and make any potential match in the future easier to deal with.  If I can tell right off bat that we are too far apart to be a match I won't even have to contact anyone and start up false hopes.  I can't imagine what it is like to sit and wait for a phone call like that.  It almost makes me breathless just thinking about it.  As if sitting hooked to a machine 12+ hours a week in order to save your life/make you ill is not bad enough.

My family has always been fairly healthy, it is something I am appreciating even more as the years slip by.

Ok, off to contact one more person.  If this one doesn't quite work out I will sit and wait for a while longer, my kidney will be just as good in April as it is now.  Wish me luck!